Birthday Post.
So I'm 19. It doesn't really mean that much, just another year under the belt.
I really do, however, appreciate all that my friends from home, and my friends from school have done for me.
Makes me feel, like, nice and shit.
Nothin' sentimental today.
Just a "thanks everyone."
(^_^)

-My Kiri-Kaeshi hits are too hard, I need to fix that. Also, they are a bit slow. I need to loosen up and quicken my strikes while maintaining my target and not hitting too hard. Squeeze in my wrists.
-I have to get Bogu somehow.
-Money issues with college. I got a letter today that threatened to kick me out of the dorms if I don't make an outrageous payment, yet the payment they said was due was paid. I have to talk to them in person about this, it worries me greatly.
-Again, my Kiri-Kaeshi needs to be fixed.
-Sore wa subete desu yo.

I urge you, who read, to read carefully, lest you miss the point of what you read.
What you read does not have to be superfluously long in order to successfully get it's point across, so do not mistake general shortness, or the shortness of a sentence, for lack of meaning. Length and substance are mutually exclusive.
This is a reactionary post, so read it as one. I did indeed mention the positives of our relationship, perhaps the words did not catch your eye the first time, this happens, I don't blame you for making the mistake of thinking what I wrote was lacking what you thought it was. But it was not.
That is all on the subject.
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I feel good these days, like I have an opportunity to begin anew.
I know that I've had this opportunity for some time now, but what happened with Sam I think has opened my eyes a little more than they were before. I think its opened them a lot more. I think that I had grown jaded in my views of some aspects of life. My life and life in general. I think now that my perspective has changed a little, in a good way.
This isn't to say that I don't feel a bit lonely and despondent, I really do. But not as much as before.
I believe that I've learned that there is a line between loneliness and happiness. They are, to some extent, exclusive of one another.
I am lonely, yet I'm not unhappy.
I want someone by my side, but I, at this point, refuse to be unhappy because I haven't anyone at my side at the moment.
I have my friends, I have my family, I have training.
Those three will always be there.
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I suppose therein lies the answer to the question of why I value so highly the time I spend training in Kendo.
It's much more than training to me.